Happy New Year Everyone!

As we all enter into the year of the dragon, i pray and i hope that you and i will prosper in every way. ( sounds so cliche though)

it’s day 3 of CNY, enough of angbaos, blackjack and good food.

on a side note, i have two more weeks of studying left. and then 2 weeks of tests and exams, and there comes graduation with a tinge of joy and sadness.

frankly, i have no idea where to go after i graduate cause i don’t make the cut into local universities but i shall trust God and live my life adventurously.

As i am preparing my resume, i realised i am a less than average student, with no distinctions and no bombastic CCA records. To start with, i quit my CCA within a few months during my first year and my resume is more than empty.

and, if i don’t make the cut, will distinguished companies like DLS, KPK hire someone like me?

somehow it’s comtradicting that i worry cause when i say i trust God, i shouldn’t worry. but i am only human.

New International Version (NIV)

MATTHEW 6:25 “THEREFORE I TELL YOU, DO NOT WORRY ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WHAT YOU WILL EAT OR DRINK; OR ABOUT YOUR BODY, WHAT YOU WILL WEAR. IS NOT LIFE MORE THAN FOOD, AND THE BODY MORE THAN CLOTHES?”

1. thank you mum, for always taking care of me, letting me feel loved.
2. thank you dad, for forming the structure of this family, being the foundation of our family.
3. thank you aunt, for loving me by equipping me by learning piano and such.
4. thank you brother, for cooking supper for me when im hungry.
5. thank you xiuwen, for letting me know what is independence.
6. thank you carmen, for shepherding me when i first came to church.
7. thank you jogina, for keeping this friendship though we used to have many misunderstandings.
8. thank you jianhao, for allowing me to be myself and helping me spiritually.
9. thank you joshua yap, for speaking into my life sometimes.
10. thank you stephanie, for always being there and being a listening ear, and be just.
11. thank you rohi, for being there for me and speaking into my life and teaching me things in life.
12. thank you jerome, for reminding me constantly not to be uptight/kanchiong.
13. thank you aliah, for being a pillar in helping me in school work.
14. thank you angel, for being my LGL, i know its tough.
15. thank you peiqi, for being more than a friend/sister-in-christ, what i wanna tell you is beyond what words can express.
16. thank you hanyang, for always lightening up the atmosphere in SP, appreciate you.
17. thank you zejun, for once leading SP. we will grow to greater heights.
18. thank you weihong, for leading SP.
19. thank you junhao, for being someone once so closely knitted to my heart.
20. thank you debbie low, for being practical and speaking truths into my head.
21. thank you (to the people i’ve once led), for being my armour bearer, and sorry for once letting you down.
22. thank you (to the leaders who once led me), and sorry if im not an armour bearer or a trouble maker.
23. thank you arielle, who once sang SOP 1 with me in church choir. the only few SOP ones.
24. thank you arina, for being a real friend when we were still studying together in year 1.
25. thank you hueymin, for always laughing at me(pun intended)
26. thank you joycetan, for being once a “commander” in my spiritual life.
27. thank you Mr Koh Soo Seng, for my construction results LOL
28. thank you Mr Hot Bod(manhunt 2011) sherwin, for training me.
29. thank you zack, for fetching me when crisis calls for it.
30. Leaving the best for the last, i would like to Thank You God, for everything, the breath that i am breathing, the every moment i am alive, truly thankful. thankful for blessing me with my family, spiritual family, classmates, and most importantly, for not failing me. i cant Thank You enough.

To everyone else, i may leave out your name, as cliche as it is, i hope that no offence shall be remembered.

As a choleric person, it’s almost crazy to stay at home doing nothing, as it’s the holidays and I’ve somewhat completed my part of the FYP. However i felt a tinge of uneasiness as i slept for most of the times these few days. you can say i am only awake 6 hours out of the 24 hours we have. even when i’m on bed, i think of how fruitful i can be. (how ironic)

Yesterday marks the first surgery i had ever in my life, wisdom tooth surgery, that 4 widsom teeth and one non-functional tooth were removed. the picture of my lovely babies can be found in my facebook though(i foresee a drop in viewership if i post it here) it’s also prolly one of the few times i received expressive support and love from my parents. my dad drove me to NDC yesterday, accompanied by my mum. they tried to cheer me up with my dad’s silly jokes.

However, waiting is almost torturous as my appointment is at 9am. and i am only sent into the surgery room at 10.15am. it felt like a million years. this time also tested my faith in God.i prayed. and i felt the inner peace though i’m abit kan chiong. ( what ridicule)

The surgery room was ice-like cold and i was only wearing a robe while the surgeon and the nurses and anaesthesiologist were wrapped with layers of coats. there was a slight embarrassment as the operation bed was too high for me and the nurses had to carry me up. the voice of my anaesthesiologist was assuring and fatherly and i felt a lil sense of comfort. what’s funny is that they tied me up and injected a specific something through my left hand i was unconscious.

The next moment i was already awake and struggling with already dried tears. i was subconcious for about 3 hours where some others who performed the surgery later than me had already went home. and the needle was still not removed from my hand i teared even more.

i felt very evidently He was with me throughout the surgery and the aftermath, and i would really wanna thank Him.(Thank You, God)

People who really know me knows that fact that i eat like glutton and eats many meals a day. however, i haven’t eaten anything except for spamming water for the past 40 hours. yes i do feel giddy but i trust in his providence and protection upon me. my face is swollen and warped from an oval shape to a distorted square shape of uneven sides. yes, that terrible. i couldnt speak and didnt even have the energy to hold my phone. my vision was blurry and contorted however i could hear clearly the conversations happening around me. my mouth, jaw and ears were totally numb and i felt awkward not feeling anything. my point is that, i wanted to remove the gauze from my mouth but instead i pulled my lip and still the gauze was still there. how silly.

yes i have a total of 8 days MC but i felt it’s not fully utilized as i am having my holidays. the only usable number of MCs is only 3 days. oh well, at least i wont miss a lot of lessons.

this is prolly one of the longest post? (alright, the most fruitful task of the day)

all in all, wanna Thank God for the situations and people he placed in my life that made me closer to Him each day.

cheers!

once again, thank you all for your presence (:

apparently , saw my cousin after the adidas marathon run and took a photo with him , with my medal. forgot to take a close up of the medal ! :<

started relief teaching yesterday and it went well thank God, no problematic students. lol.

uploaded photos of the marathon, and two birthdays in my fb. kinda lazy to post everything here luh . haha.

will be getting results on the 20th september. don’t think i will do well though. screwed up most of my papers.

counting down two more days to – adidas king of the road.  wanna go NATAS fair after my marathon excited ! (:

andddddd FYP submission (50%) is on the 9th September , and i don’t think we are anywhere near the 1% mark.

steph is gonna fly off soon and i’m sure i’m gonna miss you babe ! but it’s only a week. haha.

deep appreciation for those who helped me and encouraged me , especially (:

though bruises and aches, but i’m really happy (:

A, thanks for your patience for me though i kept falling(:

tests and exams in two weeks which means i need to mug again ! urgh. hate exam periods. who does anyway?

my dad finally won the Case. The case that we have been fighting for months.