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went cip today for like eleven hours. shant elaborate. lol. tired. it’s at IMH, at hou gang. great experience.

tiring. realised most of them are buddhist. lol. and they are diff from the normal buddhist. they talk like christians, they think like christians. haha. except their facts diff from us luh. they don belive there is a creator, and thats a big diff.

they r really great.

the other fact is that they meditate, to control their mind.

missed svc today. and yea, got a stupid headache due to the flashes of those camera

i wan cooling pad for my lappy. SOMEONE LOAN/GIVE/SELL ME.

damn it. exams coming. and i don effing see the point of chionging so much when my results arent prominent at all. my friends who supposedly didnt study got way higher. or some other who studied got high marks too. but i fucking studied too. like what the hell.

i lost motivation in studying already. fucking waste my time.

my pedicure chip le. stupid china manicurists no brain, paint on my chipped toe nail. don know how to file is it. then pay you for what. paint on my chipped nails. you joke.

i wan cooler pad for my lappy man, if not everytime high fever , my lappy go emergency  ward also no use liao.

i don know what im doing these few days. so drained. quarrelled and stop then quarrell quarrel quarrel. glad today’s ok, ALREADY.

free today yayness. time for myself as he has band prac.

tmr? going bgr sem.

sunday- svc.

monday – school then band concert.

THE END.

you’re not my definite choice.

i realise boys are insensitive with their words, note and open your eyes big, that i state boys. i don generalise all males as whatever.  it doesn’t not mean that you are old, then you are a guy/man. growth includes growing mentally too.

and know what i mean by definite .

and, i think i don deserve this from you man – exaggerated, blind patriotism.

maybe you just don know how to express. but please. learn.

so i need to learn to be independent, i guess, and not be manipulated emotionally

i guess these few days i can identify with myself, yea , my spiritual self that i have more of God, yea Jesus. today, a song kept rewinding in my mind, something like that “Jesus the prince of peace, amidst adversity….~~~~ we will shout for joy..~~~~ ” something like that. it kept ringing in my ear , which i don know for what ever reason. i guess God has something for me, lol.

btw folks. i have alot of christian lit for sale. at original price, most i have not read them yet. and the prices are stated there. they r relatively cheap as they are photocopied copies. yeap.

recently i read a book , ” more than a  carpenter” , what i can identify is that, it’s true that the word Jesus do bother people , but the word “God” doesnt. REASON?  the most probable reason is that the other religions do not claim themselves to be God. that is the big diff btw Jesus and other. he presents himself as the only one , the saviour and everything . thus, Jesus was hated by most people. the name Jesus Christ is not the first name and last name. it is a title and a name. like, full name? understand liao ma? haha. Jesus’ surname is not Christ nor V.V lol. ok, so this is a little learning. lol.

i feel glad, when i do life, i feel Jesus with me. maybe i need to focus on Him more. come on, wanting. jiayou. Adelphe, the beloved by God, jiayou. but it’s hard to focus on an intangible God amidst hectic life and busy schedule. nevertheless, Jesus, im with you.

i share, which means im vulnerable, so i appreciate no comments.

went count down that day. lol. our plan spoilt. like totally. lols. cant find where we wanted. instead kena sandwiched , which is not very nice. all those B___________ keep pushing. irritating leh. waste our nation’s space. lol.

got back my law result ytd, really damn dissatisfied. got back my ect, i failed. fucking failed. i did study. i just name all the wrong labels with the right diagrams, oh well, fuck. i broke down not cuz im sad. like -.- i broke down cuz i was angry. i dislike it when i got all the answers there and my marks arent given.

but anyway i don know why im not very affected, just felt inner joy, but stil a little affected luh.

lol. now at his place while he is at school. want to do my drawing but my drawing papers in class and my questions at home. so what now? sleep. yea . sleep.

cleared many many things in my room, (: looks more spacious. cleared all the ______ stuff plus my o lvl stuff. cant believe i stil kept them. omg. waste space.

went dental just now. the dentist so gentle. and pretty. RARE. rare i tell you. lols. but paid $150 luh. LOL. worked till 1am ytd. tiring.

going to gym and then meet thomas tmr.  thurs going countdown.

bye.

went tru the most ‘relaxed’ x mas ever , no writing of cards. yay. LOL. which means i only received a few cards, and truely a few.  but thats good. i wont receive those ” merry christmas  , may god bless you , you r really one sister who (blah blah blah)” and u know they are all cliche ,who knows is the same for everyone’s cards.LOL. and i wont hv to think whether shd i throw them or keep them. haha.

went service ytd, kinda really God’s plan to why im there . applicable to my life. the teaching.. yea. darling knows best so i don think i need to articulate it. LOL.

watched alvin and the chip munks after service, which was really nice.

caught up with some people ytd.

packed my room and cleared many things just now.. cleared all the bulletins and the survey forms. yay . more space for me(:

hey im back. school gonna reopen soon (: yay.

hai. i have spent alot, even when im broke i go shop . how ridiculous. lol.

today’s tues? oh. gonna have class bbq ltr. wanted to go gym, but no one’s free.

met up yvonne ytd(: went bugis then watched avatar with kent and jun. omg. avatar’s not my cup of tea luh. watched 2d alr wan vomit liao. what the??

going to shop for last min gifts tmr, but alr know wht i wan in mind luh. lol.

thurs gonna go out first then go service at suntec , don know wht door want. lol. the title luh.

then watching movie then going kbox, darling’s friend going book vip . woohoo! (:

then fri going meet aunt in the afternoon then join darling’s family for x mas event. (: yay

then sat i got work